Jesminda

The lesser faerie Lucien loved — and lost to his own blood.

Lowborn, beneath an Autumn Court House's notice. Lucien gave her his heart regardless. His brothers killed her, and that grief is the whole reason the youngest Vanserra left Beron's court for the Spring Court and never went back. We're not okay about it.

The girl beneath their notice

A love no House would bless.

A lesser faerie of the Autumn Court. Lowborn — far beneath anything a High Lord's youngest son was supposed to waste a glance on. Lucien Vanserra loved her anyway. In Beron's court, where station is everything and tenderness is just a weakness waiting to be punished, that was the one thing forbidden. His family wouldn't bless it. So Lucien tried to run with her instead of giving her up. We already know how this goes, and we hate that we do.

What his family did

A mercy they would not grant.

They got caught. Lucien's brothers hunted the lovers down and killed her — slaughtered for the crime of being loved by the wrong man in the wrong court. He turned on his own family, got struck down for it, and fled the Autumn Court entirely. Tamlin took the broken, exiled son in at the Spring Court. The whole shape of Lucien's life, decided in one afternoon. We will never recover.

The wound he still carries

Why he never went home.

She never crosses the page alive. She lives in the story Lucien tells, and in everything he refuses to say about his father's house. Her death is the hinge of all of it — the exile, the loyalty to Tamlin, the particular sorrow sitting under all that easy charm. The love Beron's court couldn't abide, and the proof of exactly what that court does to anything soft. We clocked it the first time. We've never let it go.

Bound to

The threads that knot around her grave.

Swipe to meet them all

Lucien Vanserra The one who loved herLucien VanserraGave her his heart, lost her to his bloodEnter Lucien Vanserra →

Beron High Lord of AutumnBeronThe father whose court would not abide herEnter Beron →

The Autumn Court The court that killed herThe Autumn CourtWhere station mattered more than loveEnter The Autumn Court →

Tamlin Lucien's refugeTamlinTook the exiled, grieving son inEnter Tamlin →

Eris Vanserra Lucien's eldest brotherEris VanserraEldest of the Vanserra sons of AutumnEnter Eris Vanserra →

The Spring Court Where Lucien fledThe Spring CourtEnter The Spring Court →

The File

Court: The Autumn Court
Station: Lesser faerie — lowborn, far beneath a High Lord's son
Loved by: Lucien Vanserra, youngest son of High Lord Beron
Fate: Hunted down and killed by Lucien's brothers
Legacy: The grief that drove Lucien to the Spring Court

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